Singapore Garden Festival

Wow, what a day we had....A planned visit to the SGF 2008 was truly amazing. The flora and fauna was truly awesome.

The Joy of Fatherhood...

I heard people said that we never realised how much our parents loved us until we become parents ourselves. Guessed its really true..

After being a parent for the past 1.5yrs, I began to realize the love relationship between mum, dad and their children. After having watched and protected Adelina growing up for the past 1.5yrs, my bond with her grow stronger each day. She brought so much joy, laughter and brings the family together. I had my share of late nights, my share of getting wet from her pisses, from her vomits...and all. But I never complained. Seeing her run around the house, climb every corner, laughs and screams and messes up our tiny home replaces all the tiredness we feel waking up in the middle of the night. I also learnt all those kids songs - hehe. Not forgetting the phonics songs and nursery rhymes..

She has started to pick up words, speak little here and there, and mumbles all the time. Her smile is like a panacea, it cures our fatigue from work and creates the sweet atmosphere at home. I tend to get protective, rushing forward at her every fall and at every slightest danger I could sense. Many lonely times with her was spent bonding. Sometimes I wonder how quiet the house would be if she grew up and heads to school.

I recalled during my last trip to HKG on work assignment. I cried myself to sleep at nights coz I missed her. I was used to have her sleep beside me each nite and feel her kicks, her calling me and he laughters. And even on my trip to PVG, I cried almost each day missing her. Now as I grew much closer to her, I cant bear not to have her around...I dread the day where I have to go overseas again for work, without them.

I have spent the last 2.5 weeks bonding with her all day. My school vacation gonna end by the week and I will be back at work. Sometimes morning till night. Thats when I dread most because by the time I reached home, its quite late and she might be asleep by then. I always 'apologise' to her whenever I come home late, as I was unable to 'play' with her. That is enough to derail me, and threw me into guilt corner. So I always try to come home quickly after work, so that I can spend some time with her - bonding.

Now she is turning 16mths and soon enough she heads to a childcare centre. We wanted her to learn to socialize and pick up some skills from the school. It will do her a lot of good to start early. I dont know how I will react the day she starts school, I might be the one crying and I might be the one feeling terribly upset coz I will not be there to catch her if she falls.

Oh shucks that feeling crept in me now, think I am shedding a tear. The thought of not seeing her for a whole day just threw me in the pits. So you can imagine if I have to work till late, how does that feel ?

Adelina is the centre of the joy at home. Both me and Z are spending quality time together as parents. The joy of love for the family is growing and we try our best to provide for her and be with her. Really, there is so much love in the family and I know I love my family, my Adelina and my wife - above everything else.

At this moment, Adelina is sound in bed and me beside her penning this away and Mummy is in the study, running up her school work. And oh yes Mummy is now kindergarten teacher. Felt so happy and proud for her. We have a family of educators now and hopefully Adelina will be a bright and smart one. God Willing !

Well, I am still harping on the day I complete my EdD and Mum completes her studies. We can move our lives abroad. I hope to take on a professorship in NZ, Aussie or Canada. Perhaps that could come before I turn 40 and we'll move on with our lives. Hey me turning 40 is not that far away .....

Adelina & Mummy ~ Daddy love you both..............very much :-)